Story time!!
Whoa, that was exciting, right? Exactly, man, it's like "woo!" ya know? Like, "dang, I just looked at 43 pictures of kittens in a variety of baskets" kind of exciting. Okay, now that you're prepared, let's boogie.
*proceeds to boogie without regard for humanity or surrounding*
I do have a bit of a story to tell, but it kind of has to involve a ton of other people. I've had a super hard time puttin this into words, but that's okay because there may not be very many people who read this anyway (#sadtweet).
So, Sunday, May the 25th, I proposed to my girlfriend Brianne. She said "yes!" kind of. She really was crying a lot, but she shook her head up and down, so I think that's a yes. Afterwards, we had a semi-surprise engagement party for her/us. And guess what?
*you guess what, do it now*
That's right, it was a day that I've relived every day since(that's only been a week, but still). It was one of those moments that, as it happens, you recognize the potential effect that it'll have on your life before anything even comes to fruition. As I knelt down to ask her the question, I knew she was gonna say yes, I knew the people watching me make the biggest life decision yet were going to be happy for us, I knew we were going to get married in about a year, and I knew that God was going to guide us every step of the way.
The moment was perfect; better than I could have imagined. But, I didn't know how I was going to get to the moment. All I knew going into the service that Sunday night at 6 was that I was going to play piano, sing a song, sit down, and wait until the right time. I had planned this out several weeks in advance: I was going to propose at the end of the service and then we were going to have a surprise party after, with the great help of Mary, Jaime and Jessica Hall, and Sherry Woods. I would have known everything and the exact agenda of the service if not for one hiccup: Teddy Turrentine.
See, when I brought up the idea to Teddy on our trip to El Salvador, he thought it was a great idea and told me to let him know when. I did. May 18th came around, I asked Brianne's father permission to ask her to marry me, he said, "get off my lawn and go home," and then I cried.
Kidding, but you believed it.
Anyway, Mr. Woods said yes and I immediately emailed Teddy, "we're on for next week!" To which he replied, "ok sounds good."
No, no...
"So, what's the plan teddy? I was thinking we could do such and such and Kyle and Kenneth could do a song as I propose what do you think?"
"Leave the planning to me, I've got it covered."
Okay so this is the point where I'm like, "Oh, that Teddy, always a-jokin!"
Then comes Monday... Wednesday... Friday... I still don't know the plan and I'm getting engaged in 2 days... Saturday I see him at a wedding:
"Hey man, what's the plan? I'M GOING TO DIE!"
(Btw, I'm pretty cool under pressure.)
He smiles.. "Don't you worry your little head, I've got this. Trust me."
HA! HO HO HA HA!!
On the way back home from the wedding, I was considerably nervous. We had a service that night and it was wonderful. The next morning I woke up and went to and Teddy asked me to have the band ready to play a couple of songs. I replied like a normal adult would, "Oh sure just do a couple songs on the night I'm proposing? No problem sure that's cool!!"
Still had no idea how it was all going down.
I practice for that service with the ring in my pocket, hid it behind the pulpit and waited for the service. Agonizing.
Then, Teddy delivered the best sermon on marriage I've heard. Then, Teddy called up couples one by one and had them tell of their engagements. Then, Teddy called us up and said, "Levi, the floor is yours."
It was perfect. Looking back, it was THE ONLY way it could've happened. It was the fulfillment of every feeling and emotion in the last four years of our relationship.
So, what's the moral here? That I get what I want and everything always works out? NOPE.
I get to marry Bri, she gets to marry me, and we share this incredible experience, for sure. But it also taught me a valuable lesson: God's plan is greater.
Just because I knew what the end goal was doesn't mean I knew how it was going to happen. I knew when, where, why, what, and who, but I didn't know the how. I feel like that's where a lot of us are in our walk with God, with our direction in life, even. We maybe know what we want to do with ourselves, we see the end goal coming into focus more and more, but for the life of us we can't figure out how in the world it'll happen. I've had this talk over and over and over again: "I know what I want to do, but I don't know how to skip all this junk and just get there already!"
I'm that way. Frustrated, confused, impatient, etc... Pretty dumb haha.
I don't know, what will happen in the coming years, but I know where I'll end up and that's serving God. I'm doing my best at that right now, but I know it'll grow if I continue in faith. Just like Teddy perfectly illustrated for me, though, it's better to trust that God has a perfect plan and keep quiet, than say you trust Him but demand the blueprint anyway. What kind of faith is that? It's not. Thank God that He looks out for us anyway. Thank God that He still gives immeasurably more despite us.
And thank God I get to marry Brianne Woods.